So history is done. Exams are done. I have 5 shooting days of practicum and 3 days left of work over the next month.

On a side note explain to me why the fuck Dan Savage of Savage love is on CNN talking about Mary Chaney's baby. It's funny seeing Anderson Cooper try not to bitch slap the woman who's saying gays shouldn't have the right to have kids.

Ok must sleep, have to be up at 5:30am to go to the burbs so my mother can catch her flight to Newfoundland tomorrow morning.

You know how they say everyone goes through a 1/4 life crisis right before they're about to graduate university? I'm going through one. I've come to the realization that I love talking and writing about tv. But not tabloid stuff. I could not hate tabloids more. I do love tv production and much to my surprise I'm not in love with programming right now. But I attribute that to the fact that I was going mostly paperwork at this job. My contract ends next week and it's not being renewed because Alliance is on a one semester per intern policy. It's stupid as hell. So now I'm confused. I interned at the tabloid show - hated it, the movie publicity firm - liked it but it was toxic, plus I liked it mostly because I loved my boss who promptly forgot who I was the moment I wasn't her intern anymore and I'm not really feeling tv programming but maybe that's because it was at the food network.

Lately I've been reconsiderng my schooling. I wonder if RTA was the right place for me, if I would have been better suited in journalism or even political science. But considering I hate formal essays and hundreds of pages of reading I doubt PS would have been for me either.

I know one thing, I want to get out of Canada or Ontario at the very least. I've been sheltered here, I need to get out and see the world. Maybe write about what I see.

I'm just confused. Is anyone else feeling this way?